Tunisia - A Travelogue

Disclaimer:
This is not a Travelogue with details into the journey route, best places to stay and eat at, must-see places etc. (there are reams available on it already!) It is simply a collection of thoughts that are still deeply impressed in my mind, after almost 10 months of the travel itself. I simply HAD to do Tunisia the honour of a memoir…. here goes…

Tunisia – it was everything that I thought it would be and more. Frankly, I did not know what exactly to expect but I had a certain flavour in mind, a certain palpation… and it lived up to all that.

Tunisia was more than just the sights I saw, the places that I visited – it was about the feeling it inspired, the thoughts buried somewhere that it brought to the fore. It stirred up a sense of adventure and exploring. The place is so exotic, I might go as far as saying vaguely pernicious even, but that’s what makes it special too. It gave me the feeling of being on a show on Discovery Travel channel, of authoring a Lonely Planet (although I was referring to it myself)- but that’s the kind of 'I-don’t-care-about-rationale' state it put one in! It was like being part of a Lucky Ali video – being a lost, lonely traveller. A kind of nostalgia, like you belong there and you have been there before.

Such a small country and what variety! I always remember being very proud of India that it has so much to offer… so much diversity and here was this country, probably one twentieth the size of India and had just as much to offer, if not more. Beautiful virign beaches, lush mountains, volcanic plateux, and the most magical of all – the Sahara! Very Mediterranean, very Arab, Western and pleasantly Islamic, all at the sametime.

To give you a picture, almost all cities in Tunisia (as in most Arab countries) have a central Medina (an old Fort) which is the old city and most new developments are outside and around the walls of this fortress. The serpentine Medina streets, with the colourful Tunisian carpets (Kilims) lend a sense of authenticity even though the Medinas are now commercial for most part and bursting with souvenir shops trying to fleece tourists. There are still some residential parts though and its quite an experience staying in one of these hotels within the Medina, atleast for Fort-freaks like me! Every old building within these walls has a story to tell. Every winding street, a mystery to unravel. Once you leave the busy main streets and wander off into the relatively untouched areas, one sees that domestic life here continues as it has since centuries. With women and children oblivious of the occasional backpacker who steals quick shots with high-tech cameras, this is by far a more fulfilling walk free of vendors trying to lure you with €10 i-Pods! 

Most cities look strikingly similar, with the exception of a few coastal ones which look typically Mediterranean, with their white and blue, low-ceilinged structures over-looking the sea and could easily pass for a village taken right out of one of the Greek Islands! These villages are home to plush, sprawling villas of millionaires craving for their moment of peace and time off the lime light, and attracts water-sport enthusiasts too. Most Western tourists can be spotted here and not surprisingly, these beachy towns are often party capitals and offer happening night-life. The country serves this mixture of cities, which makes for a perfect blend of the relaxed mediterranean feel and the exotic, might I add 'rustic' Arab feel.

Garnish this already intoxicating dish with the flavour and right dose of Historic whodunit and you have an unforgettable taste. Intriguing Roman ruins, entire cities centuries old which stand abondoned, but still staring you in the face with brimming pride and grandeur inspire awe and respect for a departed era. In all its prosperity, technology and dizzying lights today's cities of Dubai, KL etc. with all their buildings piled and put together on a scale do not match the majesty of a single Amphitheatre and the magnificence of a Colosseum in remote Africa. Its interesting to see for how long this continent has been exploited, for the rocks to build the Great Colosseum in Rome were transported from this very country! (or so goes the local story).

And transporting you through all these different sorcerous worlds is the perfect magic carpet, in the form of a local shared taxi called the 'louage'. This is a story unto itself! There is no pre-defined time of departure, it simply takes off when it is full. The drivers chant the name of the destination (which could be quite hard to follow, sometimes!) and you get into one of the louages and wait for it to fill up. This is far more efficient than the state transport which seems to be on an eternal Ramadan schedule (it functions from 6.00 to 14.00 hours ONLY). In any case all public transport closes latest by 15.00 as a rule and 17.00 is more the exception. The trains are worth just as short a mention as is the length of their time-table. The train chart for the entire country is all of 4 lines, no really!

The highlight of the trip was certainly the wizardly and magical Sahara. It challenges you teasingly to enter and just when you muster enough courage and dare, it puts your way an Omen that makes you re-think. The Oracle may be in the form of a sudden mysterious, howling wind that blows so much sand your way that your eyes stubbornly refuse the challenge or a quick shifting of sand-dune positions which makes you so lost that you dare not take a step further. Ironically, just when you retreat the Sahara also broods with a desert song that is so inviting, almost with a power so drawing that you simply cannot resist. Such is the effect of the Grand Erg Oriental! It makes a traveller feel a sense of belonging and at the sametime enkindles the fantasy of being a nomad, unbelonging. Atleast, that’s what it did to me – I wanted to forget about what I had to get back to and to hop on the next Caravan troop and be a Bedouin all my life!

The camel-back rides through the perfidious sands, the deserted settlements of once-prosperous villages, left-overs from a previous group of nomads, NO trace of other tourists for miles on end all added to the charm. And how could I do justice to describing the feeling the spotting of an Oasis evokes? One truly experiences a thirst for the panorama of a clump of trees, just ANYTHING but the sand and only the sand – and this, when you would have given your good arm to just step into the desert, a couple of days ago and have dreamed of the Sahara all your life! I am truly not hyperbolizing here, but just 2 days of the desert could really do this to you. And like a romantic novel with a happy ending, the Oasis gives just what you are craving for, and in a few hours you are left thirsty for the dry desert again and are ready to continue. Ah! The nights in the middle of the desert, when you look up and see at ONE glance the measure of stars you've seen in all your life put together.... you realize you can never marvel enough. The lingering taste of the simple bread cooked in layers of sand, the melancholic songs the local nomads sing, the warmth of the fire that gladdens your soul will stay for a lifetime.

I still struggle to put a finger on why this country was so special, considering it was never on my radar of places to visit (atleast not since long). But I realize as I am writing this that there is an array of contrasts about the country and that’s probably what perks my attention, as I often slot myself as a potpourri of conflicting traits and cerebration, 'a mixture of opposties'. Yes, there are extremes with regard to everything in Tunisia – from people rudely shutting their doors in the face to western travellers to inviting people they meet in a café to a sibling's wedding party; from having to stand the stifling heat during the day to freezing temperatures after sun-down. From the large population of illiterates whose only exposure is to the native Arabic to another huge section that talk flawless French, Tunisia is a true Salmagundi!
Yes, this strange concoction which is surprisingly pleasing on the palate is what clicks between Tunisia and me, I guess…what adds to the Chemistry ;) … what the HELL! I am going to stop looking for reasons and diluting the effect, instead just be content.

Now that you know better, you will probably understand why everytime I take my walking boots from Tunisia out, it brings a smile to my face, for it still has a few grains of fine sand from the Sahara that don’t seem to let go of my shoes; or the backpack which needs cleaning before another trip, but doesn’t stop surprising me with a few grians from every cranny. Yes, I don’t think Tunisia will ever stop having that grip on me, however weak with the passage of time but with sudden spurts so strong that I manage to go back in time and re-visit it all over again. It has by far been one of the most memorable trips and very special indeed.

In a few words, the whole trip and the weeks spent there stand for the red saharan sand, chilly pre-sunrise-mornings at the bus station with 'Lonely Planet' in hand, Thé á la mente, Louage rides, cous-cous, Kilims, camels, the old man at the street corner selling snuff (somehow I cant get his content smile out of my head), road-side Hookahs, beautiful and innocent eyes of the local women (ALL of them had amazing eyes)….. I promised to keep it to a 'few words' ..Ooops!

Memoirs of Insanity

I decided that it was time for me to get back to writing, not so much a conscious decision but an urge, something I HAD to do for myself. Well, easier said than done…. I have been successfully ignoring and pushing disturbing things to the back of my head for a while now and when I sit down to write I need a certain focus and articulate thought, which I realize Im not capable of anymore – atleast not as easily!
What with me not even comfortably slipping into my dirty blue faded jeans anymore, forget about ‘slipping’ into the writing mode! Yes, its not just my brains that have rusted and my senses that I’ve numbed; but also my bones.
The urge to write comes from wanting to lubricate my whole being….. to come back to life so to say…

Ive lived for the past coupla years in an insane trip…not being myself…. not addressing a turmoil on the inside- ‘just prorogue and see how things shape up’- that mode…
I tell you, that’s definitely ‘unsmart’, not the way to handle things- atleast not all the time, although I agree that some things just need to be impulsive and not be given too much thought.

‘Comfortably numb’ is one thing, but one cannot forever be ‘comfortable’ being ‘numb’. Takes me to a conversation I was having with a friend sometime back….about how we get ourselves into things with this thought lurking in the background – ‘Let me do this now and I’l figure a way out soon’… and I know now that it sucks to be that way….super-simplify things and do NOT get caught up in things that u need to get out of at some later point…. coz THIS is exactly what complicates life!

I had a horrible phase of insomnia, thinking of things that were picayune and let me tell u, they didn’t seem as piffling matters to me then as they do to me now. Friends were telling me that I was being stupid, but what do u do with a mind that says…’you r better…they will only realize later!?!’ (call me a narcissist for all I care!)

And they had the last laugh…. I agree with it now…but bcoz of different reasons. I got over this phase by being aware of myself and the elements around, or lets just say I formulated my way of dealing with it. If I had just listened to people, I wud stil be doing the same… nudging things till they settled comfortably in a corner far enuf not to bother me and it would have come back to me later. Instead, address it and solve it, not take refuge in ignorance. Being aware of something and letting it go always works better than just letting go becoz u are simply nescient. This works in varied spheres n orbits….. be it matters of love or career decisions or plain contemplation of life!

I bid my low phase a happy good bye…. And owing to the means thru which it happened, im sure I will have no diffidence when im faced with it again! Dunno if the line of thought is clear enuf….. but refer to the disclaimer at the start – aint easy getting back….!

Of emptiness and longing..... 'us' and 'them'...

I have wondered for a while now if it happens to everyone or just to some. Probably becoz I fall in the category of 'some', I side these 'some' people! Here, Im talking of a craving for companionship. Of course im sure everyone longs for it, but Im talking of a companion on a different level.
Its probably the quarter life crisis thats making me write about it, but leaving the reason apart, I ponder on why a few of us feel this is such a serious thing and at the same time I am appalled at how it doesn’t bother certain others at all. I classify the two species as the ‘thinking’ and the ‘non-thinking’ types. I run here, the risk of being misunderstood, that I extol other creatures such as me- but that’s us!

I have had conversations about it at length with people I think are the ‘thinking’ types…we all share this anxiety – ranges from- ‘what if I don’t find the right person?’, ‘what if I end up with someone I don’t get along with?’.. to ‘will I ever find someone?’… these may sound trite alrite… commonplace prose in today’s Friday-evening-drinking-sessions… but therez more to it.

I know of people who simply talk about it coz they worry about it on another dimension altogether- without going into the ‘how-much-does-he earn?’ .... ‘does-he-have-a-car?’ thingy, let me straight dive into what im trying to talk about here. When the thinking types talk about it – they mean it more on an emotional level, on an intellectual level, a philosophical level. To be compatible over these varied platforms is something that makes for a great innings- be it friends, partners whatever! This happens to be such a rare phenomenon that I am happy if someone is open to even having a talk about such things… even if they just understand me, without shooting me a side-glance or pulling a long face – if they just ‘get’ me!

I don’t understand if there have always been people like this (im sure they have, but maybe much lesser) or are we an emerging breed, for I don’t ever hear anyone from my parent's generation talk about ‘soul-mates’ or ‘compatibility’. They all got married coz they were either asked to or bcoz it was the right time or simply bcoz the prospective groom/bride was considered appropriate! I mean..helllo?!? what were they thinking?? I find it soo hard to understand this and likewise for them- they simply don’t get what the whole fuss with the ‘right’ person is! What is unfathomable for me is that people who think like the ones from the generation before, still exist in our's and in HUGE numbers. Most people still get married bcoz they are done with studies and are ‘well-settled’ with high-paying jobs… is that enuf, really?? And these are exactly the ones that scare me the most – they wouldn’t want to have a mature conversation, and without this primary bonding what kind of a partnership could u expect?!

I deliriously think about not getting to have what I crave for so much… someone who is exactly the same as I am is not what I mean here, atleast someone who can relate to what I am talking about, who has the same bent of mind; and not someone who will think I am mentally deranged just becoz I am a certain way. As an afterthought, maybe even this is better than the totally hapless, clueless, dumb morons who just sit and don’t say anything back!
I don’t expect ‘whoever’ to be super thrilled with me being a maniac, or share the same sense of adventure (even an interest in the things I like or a willingness to try is all I ask)- but imagine how awesome it would be if we DID actually have the same basic personality type, enjoy doing similar things- imagine how fulfilling it would be to sit under the stars and enjoy lovely verses of poetry, talk of philosophy or world history or watch a grand prix on a Sunday afternoon and talk about the cars and what strategy would have been better!- and BOTH of us love it! Now, THAT is what is ideal…. And the only chance of attaining that is by knowing the person who one is going to be with….or being with the person coz u know them well enuf! In the ideal situation, I get to be exactly what I am- MY BEING…and id love it too; the same for the other half! That’s what is the best about this whole thing that im saying …it would make life easy, happy, satisfying and harmonious.

On the contrary, imagine having to live with someone who doesn’t ‘get’ you at all – I am sure I would try desperately to make things work, but my only problem with this is, ‘would I still be myself???’ NO. And once the answer is ‘no’, therez no way I am going to be happy with this and this translates into me not being able to make anyone happy. Worse, it would lead to frustration as one feels that they are giving up so much to make things better and yet it isn’t being achieved.
I am not saying here that the people who do not think this way are not doing the right thing- it works for them and they are not complaining! In fact I envy these people coz they simply save themselves the trouble of all this anxiety and stress (which we have even before we get ourselves into anything) and they are also at ease with whatever comes their way when they get themselves into it(while here, we are in the abysmal depths of desperation). The non-thinking types have the luxury of being genuinely happy, without a care… atleast at such things as what we are talking about here- the most they worry about would be getting a promotion or getting their kids admitted to the best schools!

Inspite of all the cribbing, I like the way we are…. Im thankful there are others like me…. And also that there are people other than like ourselves (only i wudnt want to end up there! excuse me)– if there weren’t, what wud ‘we’ talk about?! Id rather drive myself insane thinking about all this than just be a vegetable and rot. The only problem being ‘our’ way is that we are on a constant search for the ‘like’ breed, which is soo hard to come by…and we run the risk of turning into ‘them’ sometime down the line… and then it would be terrible coz ‘we’ know both ‘us’ and ‘them’; where as ‘they’ know only themselves and do not understand ‘us’ ……sigh..TO EACH HIS OWN…..